Things are getting better

everyday i battle many things.anger over those i have lost,anger over not being where i want to be in life,and not feeling like i am doing enough for this awesome God that has shown so much mercy and love to me.see a pattern?safe to say i stay upset over thing?satan tries to trip us up in times we are doing all we can for God.i really feel like i am on my way to where God wants me to be.im tryiing so hard to be a example to those around me.and if i may say so im doin a pretty good job.NOT perfect and never will be but im doin better.but sometimes when im alone satan tries to make me think just that,IM ALONE.but im not and i got to remind myself of that.im lucky that im witnessing alot of really cool things that help keep me in check.lets count the blessings.1.i have found,no God has found me a awesome woman,Rachel.she has been so good to me.even when i really dont deserve it she has been understanding and loving.2.im falling in love with the minestry called XL all over again.despite alot of negative things going on and said by a few people,it has not put my fire out for growing the kingdom of the Lord.AND IT WONT.3.realizing what God has done and changed in my life.its really been hitting me hard how much he has done for me,little ole not much at all ME!the whole world to run and over see and he takes the time to touch my life and totally remold my entire way of living.did i mention we serve a awesome,great,and loving God?where was i?oh yeah number 4.my brother has started going to church.you dont know him but trust me when i say that nothing short of the right hand of God pushed him in there.i have worried about him for so long and it bring me to tears knowing that God must be pulling and tugging on his heart for him to hand it over to the Lord.JESUS ALL MIGHTY!i just had to say that right there.i love this man so much.he has been more than a brother to me over the years.more like a father than a bro.he is my real last blood relation besides my grand mother.well the only one thats around and i get to talk to.please pray for him to hand it all over.he would make a awesome preacher.people listen when he talks and instantly had your respect when you meet him.maybe thats because if you dont resect him he usually would knock your block off your shoulders?but there is such a calmness about him now.a gentleness.God is working on him and its so obvious.
well i just wanted to tell you the kind of things i try to make my mind go to when the enemy is on we some some bull stuffing.count the blessing in your life.i have many more but i dont want to type them all at one time.


ALL GLORY TO GOD IN HEAVEN,AMEN

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TEmk5EEaU_s link to a really good song.the one played half way into my testamony