The new flow

cold hearted young and dumb,this is the way i came up,selling what i had to just to get tru,God only knows the years i blew,does this appeal to you or anyone in your crew,mine was made up of dope slangers wanna be gang bangers,a bunch of dirty south trailer park gangsters throwing up there middle fingers,to anyone who may pass,pass the grass,i dont know how long this may last,fighting the whole time trying to find who i was,couldnt find me under the buzz,my ears where ringin,no one singin,dont know what side i should be leanin,gotta good heart but this life style is all i know,where do i get dough?where will my friends go?man i just dont know,i feel something tuggin at my heart,where did it start,feel like my head is being torn apart,heart one way,my mind another,should i take my life,i cant i wanna see my mother,cant let down my brother,my father loves me and this i know,i gotta go,throw down these chains thats holding my brain,i feel likec a slave,im caged,by all these things that bind me,they cant hold me,i gotta get free,feel like im running in dirt 6 feet deep,i struggle but cant get out,i shout,God save me!!!!suddenly im laid on solid ground,no chains now,nothing holding me,i cant belive i feel so free,who did this for me?who can beat what i could never defeat?who was there the whole time walking beside me?who held my head above water?hit me knees and was introduced to my Father,you mean to tell me Jesus died for me?what about all the wrong i done?now theres none?you forgive it when others wont forget?i so glad we met,thanks Dad for always being there,thanks for being one that always cared,thanks for holding me when i was scared,thanks for never leaving us,and thank you for your son JESUS!!!!!

KRIS PYLE

UPDATE

WOW...things are looking and feeling awesome.Rachel and i are as happy as we ever have been.she is truely a blessing.she is just as fired up if not more fired up about getting more involved in the ministry.I joined West Rome Baptist Church this past sunday.YEAH i know i cant believe it either.i started realizing that i was missing that worship element.XL is totally where my heart is as far as serving others but at West Rome i get uplifted.I feel that my church family just grew by eight or nine hundred people.I still have not come out of my shell there as far as singing along but i do love the music.I really feel that its the right people and place for me to grow further in my walk in Christ.

As far as the mom thing goes.Its getting a lil better.we have been in the Man vs. series at XL and this past week was Man vs. suicide.i really thought it was gonna be a hard one for me to listen to but it was ok.Jarrod spoke about it in a way that i never heard pastor speak about it before.check it out at www.xlwired.com. i again want to thank all my friends at XL and west rome for being here for me.i wanna give a extra thanks to Rachel for being here for me the whole time and also a big thanks to Jarrod Roberts,you really made sense in all you said sunday.made me feel better about it all.It may be nieve of me but i dont think she meant to kill herself.i think it was another attemped to get attention but all the same your message was awesome.Im do believe that she accepted Christ when she was in Grady the last time.Satan just never got off her back.
so thanks to all of you that have been here for me and I Love You

NEWS

well the reason i have not been bloging is there has been alot of crap.been real busy.mom died acouple of weeks ago.had to do the funeral thing that took a week.then i went to Hilton head s.c.that was nice.kinda learned something.getting to go to the beach was awesomebut i really was putting some feeling onhold.when i got back it all came crashing down.i spoke at the funeral about giving thanks to God even in hard times.man did i learn that practice what you preach is hard.im doin ok.im getting thru it pretty good.i got people that care and Rachel has been there for me the whole time.she is totally awesome.never met anyone like her.truly a God send.im very greatful for her and the rest of my church family.know this now.you gotta have church folk in hard times.great comforters.i really want to thank them from the bottom of my heart..i love yall and whenever you need me i will be there.