OK where do i start?

i have not posted for a min and i dont even know how many people read this.i have not put a counter on it so i may just be talkin to myself but in the slim case someone runs across it i want yo know about what i been learning.
i have been having some trouble with somethings every since my mom died.i started seeing a (shrink).well to make a long story short we are sitting and doig the same ole ,how do you think and feel about everyhting?and she started writhing somethings and the board as i said them.she wrote what i needed to have and feel from those around me,and if ididnt get it or feel it what i would do to feel that void,then how that would make me feel,in short how my heart was getting empty.i would be unhappy with whatever and try to make myself feel better with whatever and it usally was something i didnt need to do and would bring me shame and add another brick in the wall between me and God.so was thinking on it the next day it hit me like a ton of bricks.i was eating a wendys burger and there it was right in my face.i was using food to fill that void.and this was not on the list the day before.but i realized it was prob about the biggest one outta all of them.i would eat when me and rach would argue or whenever i was sad about what ever.so i decided to do a fast for the rest of oct .i decided to fast from meat.and yes this is the last day of it.almost three weeks.wanna know what GOD has told me?not only have i udes meat or food al together as a crutch but i used it as a sourch of my idenity.I'm kris pyle i eat meat and act tough and i am always on my game and blah blah blah.God has shown me that i dont have to do anything but love and serve him.it dont matter if a eat meat everyday.i dont matter if people think i a tough guy or even the coolest guy.people that i want to love me are gonna love me no matter what so dont try to be everything to everyone because you will fall short everytime.be you and who you and God want you to be.just because you been doing something your entire life dont mean its the right thing to do.

BREAK THE CYCLE
be more than you have been and you can only do it in Christ